No, no, you dirty birds! Get your minds out of the gutter!
I still have yet to go anywhere near that.
I think my friend A said it best when she once told me a story where she ended up saying, “No, I am sorry, I just can’t!”
I am actually referring to my six mile run today at the park. It was a beautiful day, a nice cool breeze. It wasn’t muggy and breathing was easy.
I started at the 0 mile mark, did a little light stretching, adjusted my headphones, excited about the first song to play, hit start on the Garmin and began. I was ahead of pace the whole way round the lake, even after having to stop a couple of times to adjust my headphones.
Seriously, does anyone have a suggestion for a good pair of headphones that stick in your ears? I have very small ear openings. The pillow cushioning ones slip out because I sweat so much. The around the ear ones don’t stay in, even when I tuck them under the arms of my sunglasses. I have tried so many pairs… nothing works.
Though a great run, I must say, I need some new music. I have searched iTunes for some new summer music and it all just seems lame. Even on the radio I hear them playing last summer’s songs. Is there no good new music for this summer? I have scoured my extensive library for all my old favorites, but now I am growing tired of them and need some new motivational music. Suggestions for tunes to add?
Right around 4.75, I got a cramp in my side, just below my right ribs. Normally I would push through, but I am trying to be easy on myself. So I slowed down to a walk, stretched it out, and started running again.
It came back. This time a little harder.
I slowed again, stretched a bit more, and walked it out.
As I started running again, it came back fierce, lower this time, in that spot where it did…
Around this time, maybe a week or two later.
And I thought it was just cramping from running, not enough hydration.
That’s all it can be today.
But it’s not what it was last year, even though I thought it was.
Last year, now that I think back, it was the start of losing Jack. It got worse each day I ran. I just drank more water, ate better.
Then the bleeding started. I thought it was normal. But the bleeding was heavy, oh so heavy! It lasted for much too long.
The cramping would occur even when I wasn’t running. I was in so much pain I thought maybe I had cysts. I went to the emergency room and learned differently. Learned that it was something far worse than cysts or cramping.
I learned I lost Jack.
I learned there had been a Jack.
I learned it was all my fault.
I walked the last 1/4 mile back to the 0 mile mark and reflected on that. What I could have done differently. What I could have done if I had known.
I walked to the water, sat down and looked across the lake.
I sigh now.
So, any suggestions for new headphones? Suggestions for new summer music to add to my playlist?